Ex Files

I'm not too proud to admit that at times I enjoy my ears being tickled, especially from the opposite sex. Yes, flattery has always been a quick way to penetrate my ever so shaky heart strings. One night, many boys ago, I was talking to a lust, (one who I used to swear up and down was the real thing, I digress) and I was definitely in the mood to hear some sweet nothings. So I did what any flattery driven girl would do. I brought up the ex factor. From what I can remember, I asked him the age old trick question:

"Do you miss any of your ex's?"

The "correct" response would have been, "Of course not. You're so fulfilling, until I don't need or want any old or new girls in my life."

Of course, that's not the answer I received. Instead he shockingly hit me with, "Of course, couldn't everyone see themselves with an ex."

At the time, the raging fury creeping up my throat chocked all the butterflies I was anxiously waiting to let loose had he just followed the script. That's not at all what I had bargained for. That's probably where it all started. Asking questions you either wanted a pre-set answer to, or didn't want to hear the answer to at all.

Now, at least four boys later, it all makes sense. Relationships adjust. When the two parties involved can't, that's when things fall apart. However, just because the individuals can't nurture a more intimate relationship, doesn't mean feelings die. And although I didn't want to hear or admit it at the time - it's why the idea of rekindling a relationship with an ex is never that far off from reality.