The Boot...

So I think this is it. I know - I know I've said it before, but I really think this is it. It's amazing the things you will do to get thoughts or people out of your head and heart. I don't know why, but it seems that innocent people always wind up having to suffer because of you. It was a cold reality when I realized that the person I wanted, loved and yearned for no longer existed in you. It was a cold reality when I realized that what and who I was in love with was just a distant memory. There were times when I'll admit - I made bone head mistakes. There were times that I wish I could take back to this very day. But hey - everything happens for a reason, right?

I noticed that whenever I'd try to "rush" over you, my feelings would only come back ten fold. So now, I'm going to drive slow. I don't know what the means, but I'm going to stay home and figure it out. In a way, I'm in awe at the tricks your heart and mind can play on you. In my mind, logically speaking, I could flat out say that you were no good, or that I'd be miserable or even always on edge. But emotionally, in my heart, I felt we were bread and butter. It's weird thinking that another human being on the opposite side of the planet is walking around, living their life knowing all your fears, dreams and secrets.

I'm not saying people shouldn't change. Growth is change. I'm just saying love doesn't die when change is present - even it's good, bad or ugly.