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If the title of Barbara Walter's memoir is "Audition" then the title of my memoir would be called "Close the Deal". When Oprah asked Barbara why she named her book "Audition", Barbara said it was because she felt her whole life had been devoted to auditioning for roles whether personal or career related.

I personally felt that I could relate to her rationale on so many levels. In a nutshell - life is an audition. It can start before pre K for some, but most experience it their last few years of high school when they start looking at different colleges. Others experience it when they decide they want to settle down and start auditioning for their one true love. For me, auditioning has always been an extremely exciting stage. I don't know if it's the allure and temptation of change being an attainable outcome on the other side of the audition, or if an open platform to sing and dance about myself is just too inviting for a girl like me to turn down.

At the end of the day, I know I like to audition because it brings on a sought change. Nothing is better than change this is sought. It's the change that's abruptly unexpected that is often the hardest to swallow. I don't know if it's possible, but I find myself in a place right now trying to turn abrupt change into sought change. That being the case, its getting a lot harder to close the deal on all these auditions that use to fall into place like clockwork. Maybe it's the shift in power, or maybe its Change's way of letting me know that it can't be made over, and that for once there is finally a time that no matter how good the audition went - the deal just won't close..